Assalamualaikum..
Almost 5 months since I last updated my blog. So far this year, there are 'highs' and 'lows'. Today I'm gonna write about the 'lows'.
PMR 2012
- There is no improvement as expected
- I'm lost, because all of us, had given our hearts and souls, in and off the PnP.
- Frustrating.. due to the reason that all of things I've discussed a night before exam, came out in the exam.
- But thank you to the students who always tried their best in improving their English :)
WORKLOAD
- This year, I've spent my time more on meetingssss. Sukan tu, sukan ni, bla bla bla..
- I can't concentrate on my teaching
- Missed lots of my classes.
- And the school administration doesn't make my job easier either. Thank you.
SPM 2012
- This is the biggest disappointment of all.
- I feel bad
- The night after the result released, I cant sleep. Thinking about what went wrong.
- My colleague and I did whatever we could to help the students. For the weaker class, we had extra classes on Friday + extra classes on the night.
- We spent our time working on the essay because it is the vital part on English 1119.
- I shed into tears when I recalled 'those faces'.
- Muka-muka yang xberapa pandai, tapi sanggup jumpa saya,luangkan masa until midnight sebab nak lulus. I feel pity for them. I let them down.
- I still can recall some of them came out form the exam hall and said "Cikgu ! Saya xpenah tulih karangan macam ni. Syok ja tulih. Terima kasih banyak-banyak. Ni karangan terbaik dalam hidup saya". That particular day, I thought i've succeeded. But I'm not.
- I don't even bother to see to school's overall result because of the disappointment.
- More tears go through my cheeks when I've text my colleague later that night.
- Our efforts are fruitless. We felt bad because English is the worst of all.
- We felt bad because it could be our faults. I feel ashamed of myself.
- Right until today, I'm still speechless and DISAPPOINTED.
P/s: It takes time for me to settle down. But I wont give up. Never! :) I want to say thank you to all of my students who did their best in our classes and exam. I know you've tried. I'm proud of you.
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