THE 'LOWS'

Assalamualaikum..

Almost 5 months since I last updated my blog. So far this year, there are 'highs' and 'lows'. Today I'm gonna write about the 'lows'.

PMR 2012

• There is no improvement as expected
• I'm lost, because all of us, had given our hearts and souls, in and off the PnP.
• Frustrating.. due to the reason that all of things I've discussed a night before exam, came out in the exam. 
• But thank you to the students who always tried their best in improving their English :)

WORKLOAD

• This year, I've spent my time more on meetingssss. Sukan tu, sukan ni, bla bla bla..
• I can't concentrate on my teaching
• Missed lots of my classes. 
• And the school administration doesn't make my job easier either. Thank you.

SPM 2012

• This is the biggest disappointment of all. 
• I feel bad 
• The night after the result released, I cant sleep. Thinking about what went wrong.
• My colleague and I did whatever we could to help the students. For the weaker class, we had extra classes on Friday + extra classes on the night. 
• We spent our time working on the essay because it is the vital part on English 1119.

• I shed into tears when I recalled 'those faces'. 
• Muka-muka yang xberapa pandai, tapi sanggup jumpa saya,luangkan masa until midnight sebab nak lulus. I feel pity for them. I let them down.
• I still can recall some of them came out form the exam hall and said "Cikgu ! Saya xpenah tulih karangan macam ni. Syok ja tulih. Terima kasih banyak-banyak. Ni karangan terbaik dalam hidup saya". That particular day, I thought i've succeeded. But I'm not. 

• I don't even bother to see to school's overall result because of the disappointment.
• More tears go through my cheeks when I've text my colleague later that night.
• Our efforts are fruitless. We felt bad because English is the worst of all. 
• We felt bad because it could be our faults. I feel ashamed of myself.
• Right until today, I'm still speechless and DISAPPOINTED. 

P/s: It takes time for me to settle down. But I wont give up. Never!  :) I want to say thank you to all of my students who did their best in our classes and exam. I know you've tried. I'm proud of you.

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